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August 30th, 2018 (10:37 am)

One day in the not so distant future you'll be dead and gone.  Soon after, there will be a last time someone remembers you, and then after that point it will be like you never existed for eternity.

Wade [userpic]

I actually added this one to fb too, which is unusual

August 13th, 2018 (05:18 pm)

Is there supposed to come a point in your life where you just get fucking tired.  Tired of almost everything and almost everyone.  Tired of fighting the battles with politics, tired of going out, tired of just generally everything that you used to have such a drive for, and you just want to sit, and relax and enjoy the little things.

I know I'm gonna have a bunch of people older than me giving me shit for saying this probably, but did you feel this way when you were my age too?   Maybe it's the extra workload right now stressing me out, maybe it's other shit, maybe I just need a vacation or a break.  Imagining leaving FB, leaving the country, leaving Earth.

It's not just me, I feel like the people of Earth are now fighting this onslaught of depression like we lost our way or something.  Is it because of corporate greed and we now realize how we are low paid pawns?  Is it because every day is another battle?  I feel like suicide rates and drug death rates are going up quick, random shooters are coming out more.  Like, what actually happened?

Maybe it's because I was a happy-go-lucky kid who just wasn't ready for the shitshow that life is, and in my 20's I treated life like a party and it's caught up to me?

Yeah I know, emo.

Wade [userpic]

Things are going quite well...

June 25th, 2018 (09:33 pm)

Vincent Van Gogh's final words "La tristesse durera toujours.", or that which translates to "The sadness will last forever." have always stuck with me.

I feel like most people take the words quite literally in meaning that everything is always sad.  And while I am unsure what Vincent himself meant by the words, I take it not as that.

To me, what it means is, there are times which aren't sad.  But even during the happiest of times, the sad times still existed.  There's no taking back that which has already passed.  Those moments live on in eternity, so they are stuck forever.  "The sadness will last forever."

Wade [userpic]

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May 22nd, 2018 (11:57 pm)

5/19/18

Wade [userpic]

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March 21st, 2018 (03:01 pm)

I'm writing a bucket list.  Not a bucket list of things I will waste my whole life not doing, but a real bucket list of things I'd like to do if I had 30 days left to live.

Wade [userpic]

2018

January 2nd, 2018 (10:07 am)

Years go by too fast these days.  It's like your brakes failing while riding your bike down a big hill.  You just can't slow down and enjoy the moment, and you're heading for a big crash.

Wade [userpic]

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October 19th, 2017 (03:01 pm)

Why do we go out of our way to try and live the life we believe we're supposed to live?  I find myself trying to fit into these social norms even though I realize some of them are standards set by people I don't even give a shit about.  Why do I feel compelled to live a life set by these standards, even over my own happiness?

Wade [userpic]

Welp.

September 20th, 2017 (01:40 pm)

Every bad thing that has ever happened to me in my life can be contributed to a relationship.  Why the fuck would I want to put myself through that?

Wade [userpic]

Dreamland

September 18th, 2017 (09:08 am)

Last night as I slept in my bed, I had a dream that I was sleeping on my couch.  That wasn't the weird part, the weird part was that my house phone was ringing in that second dream waking me up, and it's not even hooked up, so it startled me awake, and then it made no sense so I woke up from the second dream like in those crappy TV sitcoms where people keep waking up from more dreams.

Wade [userpic]

The rose from Beauty and the Beast

September 13th, 2017 (11:09 pm)

It's actually pretty spot on symbolism for real life, or at least trying to date in your 30s.  The roses keep falling as you get older and less desired, and eventually you're just stuck as a beast forever.

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